I am confused.
The future director,secretary of my future nonprofit neurodiveristy organization who is a grad student, behavior analyst,and a future consultant to my organization,and agreed to create my website doesn't share my beliefs in Astrology nor anything metaphysical. He sees them as B.S. He looks at me like somebody who is being hurt by astrology even though it's something that I am passionate about. It's something that I feel that I am very good at doing, and people have told me that too including telling me that I should charge.
The whole of Developmental Neurodiversity Association (DNA) is that I want to help indigo,crystal children which are mainly metaphysically oriented types with many that fall under these what I feel are unnecessry labels which are the social model type issues which he even brought up. If the organization helps genetic neurodivergents which are the ones that have pronounced strengths and not just pronounced weaknesses with learning,neurological processes that don't fit mainstream classroom, then that would pretty much cover those indigo,crystal types who are extremely sensitive,divergent in multiple areas.
My belief is that the more sensitive they are, the more "severe" they tend to be. In my case, I got misplaced with the mentally retarded in 1st grade because of my severe dyslexia,dyspraxia. It wasn't until I had developed some language skills because of speech therapy and demonstrated strong visual spatial skills, I was realized to have above average intelligence and that I didn't belong in that special ed classroom, and so I was taken another school to be in a special education classroom for students with learning differences. I greatly benefited from early intervention, and so the special education was a mixed blessing.
I just don't feel right with this guy even though he wants to help ND and is ND himself as he told me that he was diagnosed as having ADHD and medicated with Ritalin in childhood,but he believes that he has Aspergers. He doesn't want to help metaphysically oriented types.
He doesn't believe in any of that stuff.
Frome what I see,neurodivergence and metaphysically oriented types they are strongly connected. The symptoms of neurodivergence and schizophrenia overlap. Half of schizophrenics have history of developmental issues like speech/language delays/problems and motor skills/coordination delays/problems
For all we know, many of the schizophrenics can be metaphysically oriented types, but they are either misunderstood by skeptics or have serious psychic boundary issues or both. I strongly believe that too many neurodivergents are being misdiagnosed as having psychotic disorders which even included me and my biological father as well as so many other people.
He just made me feel uneasy, telling me to prove astrology to him and to convince him.
I didn't want to do that. I don't want to prove astrology nor convince anybody about astrology working. I don't feel the need to. I used to, when I recently got into it, and it was because it was a newfound interest,passion.
I took it personally when they thought Astrology was B.S., then they saw me as being stupid. You know that I don't like being viewed as stupid
I did get told that I was stupid and treated that way because of my belief in Astrology even by some people in the metaphysical field. That included people who were into magick.
Do they even have room to talk. They believe in controlling the forces of nature. Shrinks would think that they are more delusional than I am.
I don't feel that he is the right fit for the ND organization, but I don't feel that it's fair to dismiss him for not sharing my views. That would make me look narrowminded and like I am discriminating. My discussion with him yesterday bothered me the whole last night and even today. I feel lot of conflict in me....the conflict of being a neurodiversity advocate and being an astrologer.
I showed him the link to the Holistic Healing Expo, and he referred to it as being too hippy.
He even made a remark about bombing the expo. He didn't mean it,but just made his strong dislike for metaphysical stuff known. He is a very skeptical type of person,and he even said so. He said that he is open though. I don't know. I don't feel comfortable with a future fellow director and officer of my neurodiversity organization that I am misguided,gullible,and hurt by my metaphysical interests. If I become a professional astrologer, he is going to see me as being fraudulent,delusional,ripping people off, taking advantage of people's gullibility,and misguiding others. I feel that's the reason why I haven't become a professional astrologer even though I have been doing it for over 11 years. I also can't help feeling stress of having to separate my neurodiversity advocacy and metaphysical interests which I intend to do. I am afraid to be looked down by others in the neurodiversity for my metaphysical interests. I don't want my neurodiversity advocacy to be dismissed because of my metaphysical interests.
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What really stood out was some of the asteroids
My Mercury oppose his Chiron under half a degree which can indicate that I can feel intellectually inadequate with him, and there can be wounding in communications. It could also fit with the special education connection.
On a hunch, I checked the asteroid, Hygeia which is the asteroid named after the Greek Goddess of health, to see if his making stressful connections to my personal planets. It seems to relate to health matters. It's one of the big asteroids too. It was one of the objects that was going to be included as a new planet in the planetary proposal that got rejected.
His Hygeia conjuncts my Saturn,closely squares my Moon (my hunch was right), and opposes my Neptune. So he aspects my t-square. It indicates conflict involving health matters. He activates my emotional conflict of skepticism versus metaphysical with his own skepticism of the metaphysical and viewing me as being misguided and hurt by it. His Hygeia closely conjunct trines my Pallas trine Vesta which indicates a good connection involve service and creative ideas which would fit with him working
for me in the neurodiversity organization.
My Sun-true Black Moon Lilith conjunction in Scorpio and his Pallas in Taurus are in close opposition to each other, and I can't help think that this is also an indicator of his skeptical view about my metaphysical interest which can lead to conflict between us.
My Sun trine his Ceres seems like a caring connection.
My Juno is closely conjunct his Saturn,and that seems like the possibility of a restrictive partnership even though there can be stability and structure.
His Juno-Jupiter conjunct my Ascendant seems like it would be good for an expansive partnership.
as for the regular stuff
His Venus squares my Uranus which seems like an unstable connection for partnership. He can get the impression that I am too crazy. My Venus is almost exactly conjunct his Uranus which also can be an unstable connection for partnership, but it also can be the connection that we have in regards to both of us being different from the norm.
Ours Mars are in closely trine to each other, and so our assertive styles are in harmony. That good be good for working together.
His Mercury opposes my Mars,and that could indicate communication conflict that include debate that can be uneasy. I have experienced that already with him.
I can't overlook his Sun in Virgo oppose my Moon in Pisces and squares my Neptune for a t-square. That alone could indicate the issues of the issues of the critical thinking versus metaphysical.
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Thanks
Raymond Andrews